oh dear me no! I do not mean you are stupid for being under this pressure. Having to keep things secret is an additional pressure that is so hard but sometimes we have to for whatever reasons. I have had to in the past.....it wasn't a healthy or happy time for me back then

Lemme try to explain......you have written reasons why you keep a lot of these issues secret based on your living situation and your father. I feel badly that in addition to all the pressures you face this secret must be kept up as well.

It doesn't mean I think differently about you at all! I wish we all lived in a world where we could speak freely and live freely with our illnesses w/o stigma or whatever reasons compel us to not reveal our whole selves to others.

I do not think you are stupid rather that you are very insightful to be aware that things are getting more difficult and that you are considering adding more support on board (antidepressants). That sounds smart to me lady!

Can I speak as one person who lives with major depression to another who is currently depressed? Yah, it is more likely the skewed thinking of the DISEASE!! not you sweetpea!!

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