SS, I haven't done it for a while, but a couple of months back I was out walking quiet streets in my city at around four in the morning and at midnight, whilst alone. I knew the risks I was taking but sometimes I felt so down, I didn't care what happened to me and if something did happen, so much the better; othertimes I actually wanted something to happen so it would justify me feeling depressed. I never talked about it with my counsellor either: i didn't think she would be too impressed with me .