((Patty)),
I don't think you are wallowing.
You are being honest and sharing how you are feeling...talking about it is better than letting it build up.
Please don't be so hard on yourself.

Coming off any AD is hard, and Paxil is one of the harder ones. Brain zaps is putting it mildly, isn't it? Add in dealing with feelings the Paxil may have blunted, and you have a tough time to get through...

Peace,
Cap