they rang and said did i want to take leave for tomorrow and be back on monday and i said yes - funny thing - now ive had two days off i dont want to go back (all this fuss and pain over two days! ) - im too tired and i dont care anymore. I just want to curl up into a little ball under the covers and not come out again until im healed.(ok that would be a big ball )

I cant struggle against this anymore - i sat up today and did nothing -except look at the things i should be doing -so i might just as well have been in bed - im just too tired - i suppose ive wound down from being at work, so i guess i'll take you up on your challenge Luce, maybe I can sleep this off, maybe all i need is rest and now i have till monday to get it - im not sad anymore - im not really anything anymore - apart from tired -maybe thats it - im not really anything and this is all a figment of my imagination, a bad dream and i will wake up - but somehow i dont think so - but it was nice for just a moment to think this was all a dream - totally nuts in the head! but nice thanks for your support P7