Did you ever know that you're my hero? You are such an inspiration to me. In the middle of all the hurt and all the sjit that has been thrown your direction recently, you are still not giving in. And I know that the pain is still there, and so are the urges and desires. Of course they are. But you are not making the damage deeper by hurting yourself more. That you still struggle, and you keep on standing fast to your decision not to si, really shows your strength. If you didn't struggle, then it wouldn't be as much of an accomplishment. When I want to give in, I'm going to think about you, and hope that maybe I can make it as long as you have.

Would you like to talk about why you feel like a screw up at work? You're welcome to PM me if you would rather. Boy, I could tell some stories along that line too, but what I really admire about you is how much you love and care about your children and family. My T told me if you can manage to be just marginally ok at work, you can get by and people won't really notice, but at home is where it really counts and where you really need to be your best. And you do that. I could learn so much from you.
I hope you feel better soon. Meanwhile, I'm so proud of you!
Rap