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I'm so sorry that your father doesn't understand the dis-ease that you are suffering with, and the support that it takes to overcome it. There is no shame in having struggles and needing help (wow - I wish I could tell that to myself and accept it). It's true though. You are not to blame for having depression and for coping with it as best as you can. It isn't fair to deny you opportunities (or threaten to) on that basis. Maybe meds will help you. There is no shame in that either. I'm glad that you are turning to professionals for help, and also reaching out here where there are people who understand.