Hey, at least you are resisting for at least a few days. I know how that goes. If each time you try to resist just a little bit longer, eventually you will beat it entirely. It's still rotten having those urges though, isn't it?
You don't have to be sorry to us. You are loved and accepted here no matter what.
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“We should always pray for help, but we should always listen for inspiration and impression to proceed in ways different from those we may have thought of.”
– John H. Groberg