In reading your post I wonder if you want to be admitted. I understand you don't feel suicidal now and that very, very good. However, if you've gone so far as to think about telling you doc and wondering what would happen you may be looking for being admitted. I was admitted at my doc's suggestion. We were fairly new to each other and I was having insurance problems getting the meds I needed. After I agreed to go in he told me if I didn't show up by a certain time he'd come to get me. I told him I'd be there. Here's what happened. I found it to be SAFE. I've never thought of my life in those terms. Security - financial, emotional security of course but I never thought of my life in terms of safety. From the moment I got there I realized everyone who worked there was there only to make sure I was okay. The people who were admitted were very supportive without being intrusive. As an adult I've never experienced that feeling before. Now I know why some of the people were return patients. You can vent, you get the meds you need, you get support. It was great. Do not hesitate to tell your doc if you feel you need to be admitted. It's not horrid or frightening, in fact, it's the exact opposite. What made me decide to go in was when my doc said I needed time to focus on myself. It really helped and I ended up being in a very short time - less than 3 days. Please tell your doc if you feel it would help you to be admitted. It made a huge difference for me. God bless you in your journey back. You will be back. If you can be stand the wait, you will be back.