hey..

i don't normally post in this forum.. i usually stick to the psychotherapy forum. i dont like to try to keep track of multiple forums for one thing... but really it's because i haven't really felt like there was anything left for me to say about my bipolar disorder... i'd posted for years about that elsewhere.. not a lot left to say.

but now i've hit a different snag...

bipolar disorder (i have bpII, rapid cycling) has a lot of overlap with bpd... some have been dx'd with both, but it's hard to say sometimes because of that overlap. i know i have some bpd characteristics.. and i now understand just how damn near impossible it is to fix. i feel doomed and hopeless.

i had learned to more or less live with the bpII... even the fact that it means meds for the rest of my life... but this is different. This is finding out the aspects of who you are that drive others nuts and then discovering there really isn't a lot you can do about it. i can see how misaligned my ability to interact is compared to how most people feel and act.... and i feel so bad about it. The pain i feel is intense.

anyways.. i guess there isnt a question in this... just a whine i guess...