Thanks for the hugs, Sannah!

missboots, unfortunately it's too late for me to start a family of my own. Good idea though.

We are both Christians but I've done a lot of research on Christmas traditions and have realized that it's not what I thought it was. I look at Christmas so differently now. I'm really not sure how I want to celebrate Christmas or if I want to celebrate it at all in any kind of traditional way. I'll have to figure out something though so that both of us can be happy at the holiday.

Christmas day was fraught with tension. We weren't fighting but we hadn't exactly made up either. Then yesterday husband talked to me about what a mess the house is and wanted to know why I've given up on everything. I told him it is the depression but he kept on asking what the problem is. I think he needs it to be something concrete so one of us can fix it. I wish it were that simple. I told him that I'm doing my best but of course I don't feel like that is a good enough explanation for him.

I guess it would do me some good to start talking about the holidays now and figure out how we want to approach them this coming year. It's just so hard to plan ahead when I feel so depressed. Gotta do something though.