leslie, sorry that Christmas wasn't good for you either. That's a good idea to get help cleaning the house, only problem is that I feel that the house has to be clean before anyone comes in to clean it. Isn't that silly. I should just give in and get someone in to at least clean the kitchen and bathrooms. Maybe I'll check into that on Monday.

My husband's feeling for his kids is so much more than just a longing. It's an obsession. My husband does have OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) so maybe that accounts for his feeling. He gets too attached and I don't get attached at all. I have grandkids and have no feelings for them whatsoever. That's just not right. I know it's just part of my depression/illness but it's hard to know that I feel nothing for them when I'm not with them.