I feel that I make good eye contact already and stuff, but lately I just don't feel like being social at all to even test out new things. It like I wake consumed with things that people have said about that have beennegative and negative things I have done to others. It's like I'm obessed with not liking myself and don't think anyone else should like me either. And it awful because I'm felt this way since I was a kid. It just so hard to not be a negative self-absorbed perosn.