Suzy, I am so sorry about your trauma over your mums suicide. That is my greatest fear as my son is still so young and cannot articulate how he feels. It will come out more in his behaviour. I have created a very wide safety net around him filled with family and professionals. I will also contact his principal when he returns to school to let him know so that we can work in conjunction if his behaviour should be off. I am doing all this without his knowledge because if he knew he would be overwhelmed but there are many people around him now to catch him if he falls. I also have much to work through as I am walking around like I have a lead brick in my stomach. I have to be aware of my own mental health as well as I have also been suicidal in the past and I am not exactly well myself. So I will take my meds, see my shrinks and try and be the most subtle, paranoid, protective pillow that I can be for my son.