I am not sure i can do this. I wanted to be cut free for my 20th birthday. so i can have a fresh start. But I started reading a book. Then I read one of my books that helps me not to cut. And it made it worse!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what i should do. Im confused. I dont want to do this. It was going to be my new years resolution. Not to do it anymore. I thought that i was compleatly over it. I guess im not. Im here scratching my forehead. Debating.Trying to hold back long enough. But the rope is pulling me closer and closer to its sharpness. This is not even a debate anymore. I have to wait it out. But i dont think i cannnnnnnn.............