Damn contract with my T. I called him up about three weeks ago, and asked him to make a verbal contract with me because I trust him a whole lot.

I used to get annoyed at myself for stopping for someone else, but I realized that in order to stop the behavior, it doesn't really matter who the hell you are stopping for, as long as you're stopping. I figured that, in time, I will stop for myself.

However, I have spent many nights thinking, "Why the **** did I make this promise?"

Sometimes the emotional pain is too much to sit with and it would just be so much easier to injure, rather than sit with the pain.