Merry Christmas Mom! This is the first year without you. This has been a year of great pains and great joys. Losing you in February and Grandpa October last year was really hard.

Kenny proposed today....I know you would be happy. I ended up sobbing because I was not able to share this with you. I know you are looking in on me and you would be so proud of the woman I am becoming.

The ring is nothing fancy, but he got it because it's what *I* wanted. New Years is our anniversary, please don't come around then!

I know dad didn't want to celebrate this year, so we are just going to stop by for a few minutes. Please help him get through this year and help him not to get angry with us tomorrow.

We are making dinner tomorrow, in your honor. I am making a donation to cancer research, in your honor.

I will be thinking of you.

I love you and I miss you so very very much. Please help us all through this time, we need you right now.

BJ