I've been thinking about the last time I was hospitalized tonight. Strangly enough it was not for cutting--well I guess in a round about way it was--I basically went crazy trying not to hurt myself--I didn't sleep for about four days straight
Any way I was thinking about it cause I'm back at school and I see my shrink in less than two weeks, and the last time I saw him was when he was discharging me. I feel like such a disapointment. Ya know what I was on the last time I was on the last time I was in the hospital--Seroquel--I mean that is pretty heavy duty stuff.

Oh by the way have any of you ever had the words Border Line Personality Disorder thrown about--what do you think of it? I think it is said to be a disorder of emotional regulation.
My shrink that I have been seeing for the past 6 months (while I've been living with my parents) says I'm bipolar. I really don't like him--every time I see him the first words out of his mouth are "have you hurt yourself" and then "have you thought about hurting yourself"---
I just wish I could take all the pills and flush them down the drain--not have to take them any more--I wish I could just wipe the slate clean and forget what has happened

you guys take care of yourselves--and I'll try to do the same--
All my love
moonlight

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