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romanjames2004 · 04:54 AM

Ok soooooo...

I was diagnosed with general Anxiety Disroder, depression, and OCD. Unfortunatley I originaly thiought I was going to be diagnosed with bipolar before I actually got help. I still think that I could be misdiagnosed because I have alot of Bipolar symptoms.

I usually will be depressed for days and then go into a manic state. I actually think I am in my manic state right now because I can't sleep and I want to go and ride my bike to the store to buy some fruit and drinks (to make margaritas, pinia...). It is 3:13 AM here and it is 28 degrees outside. Also I am 18.

Here are some of the things that make me think I could have Bipolar as well.

I have sudden urges to do random things.
ex. I want to quit college and become something but I dont know what and I dont know why.
I get really hyper active.
ex. I want to just do fast paced dancing or running or partying.
I used to go out and party alot as well as drink. (being underage it wasn't great to do)
I can get really promiscuous. I am Bi-sexual.
ex. My friends as well as sister and aunt called me a male slut.
I can get extremely angry and have random outbursts.
ex. At the dinner table my family will poke fun at me and I will just go off on them when really it will be stupid or not even worth the drama.
Also I can be really kiniving and scheeming. I was the one who kept secretes for all my friends and helped them fight amnongst eachother.
ex. I was known as the badboy that people wanted to be around but they dint know that he was who he was.
I have racing thoughts and speech.
ex. I think about stuff like the future and I have random thoughts. I also can talk and talk and talk for hours about random or useless stuff. (My family hates dinner lol).
I also love to spend money that I can;t or dont have.
ex. I will empty my savings to buy clothes. Or for chritsmas I got $300 and I spent it all by going to the mall and hittiing three stores in a half hour.
I still have all the depressive symptoms.
I am always sad or meloncholy
I get extremely pessimistic
I loose alot of interest in the things that I like to do
I feel really guilty about the stuff that I do (if you read above) as wella as stuff that is not my fault.
I get tired alot util i feel like im in a maic state
I cant make my own descisions or I dont care
Suicide thoughts
And I have this chronic back pain that could be due to depression symptoms but I have to look into that.
I dont know if there is more wrong weith me or I was misdiagnosed. I know I have my anxiety stuff and my ocd but I think that i have a little bit more than depression because I have manic states.

Well, I off to the store to buy some stuff. I hope this thread is readable. What do you guys think?

Thanks' soo much,

Roman James