melmac, i'm so sorry! the feelings will come back when you can handle them. they're too much right now probably. i did this same exact thing with a horirble event with my daughter. i was acting/doing all the right things for her and everyone. i even mentioned to a professional at the time what was happening and she said, "they'll be there...soon." she was right...oh boy.

know they'll be back when they can be handled. in the meantime, you might want to prepare yourself for when they come. have a plan for self care? plan what you're going to do to allow yourself to feel? maybe know that you can spend a couple of days in bed, set up ppl to call, etc.

please keep safe and let us know.

kd