Sweety, you CAN do it, you can hold on for a little while longer. I know you can. I know you don't want to and it's hard to believed but I believe in you and your ability to fight the urge to get that blade again. Sweety, look at all you've been through! Just look at it and look how you've pulled through. I am so proud of how you've done, don't you let living in that place drag you down there, don't let it win. Even if you have to fight every second after eating to keep it down, remember that you are worth it, you deserve to get stronger and healthier and happier and you can keep doing it. Keep focus on the goal--happiness, your career, Connor. You don't want to lose it all with one action, honey; I know you don't. And I know you won't. I have the faith in you that can stay strong...don't forget to message me anytime you need to---I will be the one to constantly remind you that you are worth staying safe, you are worth the fight. Everyone here will remind you of that and help be your support!