Found out from my sons dads girlfriend that there is a possibility that he died by accident. That he did not mean to overdose. Apparently he rang her at 7pm Xmas day night and said he would call back at 9pm. When she arrived back in Cairns after his death there was a meal half cooked in the kitchen. She said it was like he had started cooking, rang her and then killed himself. Very strange especially as he said that he would call her back later. There is another scenario that the police have had suspicions about. Apparently Ismals brother was the one that found him but the police are saying that his story is inconsistent with the evidence. My sons dads girlfriend said that his brother made a very chilling comment with a smile when he was leaving to come back to Brisbane, something like "I got out of that one" or " I got away with that". She didn't think much of it at the time as she is filled with grief but she then later mentioned it to the police and thats when they stated that his story didn't add up. All 3 scenarios are revolting but elicit different cognitions. He has had an autopsy but due to backlog of forensic cases in QLD it could take 6 months to get cause of death and toxicology.

I mentioned to my son that there was a possibility that his father didn't mean to die. I did not mention the possibility of his brothers involvement. My son does not want to go to Cairns for the funeral so I have firmly stated to my son that we are to have a small ceremony here just he and I. We will light a candle, say a few prayers and say goodbye to his Dad. He doesn't want to do it. He is acting like it has never even happened so I am going to have to be a bit firm with this one act. I will not dictate how he should feel or express his emotions but I will be his mother and lead by example the best way I can. After the ceremony, I will not bring it up again but I will keep a watchful eye. That was my promise to my son if he participated in saying goodbye to his dad.

God this is awful. I feel like the blind leading the blind.