"Thanks ,,, but I know somehow the past should not interfere with the present or future ." Quote WMD

Who said that WMD?
How can it not? Our upbringing shaped our mental being.
It's not that it will never affect our present but somehow through work we can see beyond that, build some sense of security for ourselves. What ever that healing may mean to you. Healing is different for everyone.

That why I be a survivor ,,, count on only one person ,,,Me. Quote WMD

No you learned to only count on one person because it was safer that way. I assure there are more out there who can be trusted, you just have to find the right ones.

As far as * T * goes and being able to open up and tell all >>. heck , that is easy . But ,,,, if he started to feel sorry for me or absorbed any of my pain or hurt in anyway ...?
I would take the notepad and ask him if the couch or chair would be better ,, and then say " So what brings you here " ?
Quote WMD

I have thought of that myself at times. But then I say what's wrong with that. I would love to be used with others in such a way because I know all to well the hurt that cuts deep.

However, I think it goes deeper than that for you. I think its a need to take away from your own hurt by changing your focus to another individual. Again, lack of trust. Your not use to those feelings of empathy and therefore they can be scary. There has to be some other motive behind his actions/words....right? He can't just love you for you.

Hangingon