I had a decent session back today---no fights, no ruptures. I feel really sad and somehow I am translating this as if I need a break from therapy. I can't seem to hit a stride where I feel even a little bit good coming out of there. I always leave feeling bad about myself, or overwhelmed or like I did something wrong. As I integrate those part of myself that I split off years ago I feel worse. I am beginning to think that being unintegrated was a better place for me. I have no confidence anymore and my sense of who I am is full of holes. I can see through myself. Maybe I need a break.