Oh manda! I am so sorry that you are still dealing with this family!! You are an adult and do not need to be treated like one of "momma's" children!! I love Drew's idea of telling her you need her support not her lecture (however, I too hate confrontation and will do a lot to avoid it). Stuart needs to have a swift kick in the pants and Drew needs a hug for supporting you (and a "what were you thinking!?" for giving the tool to his brother). Manda, is there any any any way you can get in to talk to someone? I know money is an issue (with everyone!) but please, hon, please contact community mental health, catholic social services, reserves wives club, local priest/preacher, family doctor, someone to get you in to talk to someone. I worry so much about you and hate to see that you are not only struggling daily with cutting and worsening depression, but dealing with a family that does not understand and won't!