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Have you considered calling a crisis line? I have never personally used this resource however I know people who have been really helped by calling. Another option is to call your T and let them know what you are going through and if you feel that you are a danger to yourself then seek help immediately, call 911 or go to the local er.

You matter, please practice good self care.