be careful about upping your dose of meds by yourself. if you do not know your limits you will end up in the hospital drinking that charcoal junk.
take it from someone who has done it be careful. that is all i can say.
can i ask you something IF something happened to you, who would take care of you kitty. if it did not love you it would not sit by watching you.

you dont have to forget or let go of your love one, let them be your guardian angel, talk to them like they were still there. i know. it helps.