I used to have this habit of banging my head on the floor or wall or beating it with my fists if I was overstimulated. I think it's pretty well under control now with medication and therapy. However... the last time I was in a church service... things happened that made me feel trapped and vulnerable and overstimulated and out of control. I left that service with a bruise on my head. No one saw me beat my head on a wooden beam. We were all supposed to be gathered in a circle holding hands and singing something like "Jesus Loves me, this I know". It was way too much for me and I felt like I couldn't leave without drawing attention to myself... yet staying was giving me a lot of internal reactions. So I reverted to an old behavior. I'm gonna try hard not to let myself get trapped like that again. I told the pastor what happened and why. See.... he has this care/concern/calling to minister to disenchanted and hurting people. He wil need to change his methods and order of service if he's gonna minister to people like me. That's why I told him. I think he listened to me. We are now meeting in his house again instead of a building. The service is much more informal when we meet in the house and I dont' feel nearly as trapped. I dunno if this makes sense to anyone at all. Just writing out my experience.