i'm so sick of feeling alone. and maybe its not just that. i dont even know why im so upset everyday. i shouldnt be. i worry everyday that i'm never going to find anyone who truly loves me. weird things are starting to happen, tihs person keeps popping into my life to save me from feeling alone but it just doesn't feel right. that probably made no sense...so just nvm ignore it. but i just....idk. i dont know anymore...ANYTHING. i dont see why i should continue living in tihs horrible place feeling this way. its not fair. waking up everyday hurting hoping its going to just go away one day...but it never does. and now im thinking it never will. blah just mad, upset, ranting....

i guess i made the point that I DONT KNOW anything right now. im just losing myself and everything.