It's possible you are misdiagnosed, but it's possible you are also really impulsive and that is made worse by your anxiety.
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Originally Posted by romanjames2004
... I actually think I am in my manic state right now because I can't sleep and I want to go and ride my bike to the store to buy some fruit and drinks (to make margaritas, pinia...). It is 3:13 AM here and it is 28 degrees outside. Also I am 18.
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That doesn't necessarily sound manic. It sounds a little loopy maybe, but not manic. There's gotta be more there. That plus a few more things could be manic. That could be one aspect of a manic episode. But that by itself isn't mania.
Have sudden urges to do random things is an impulsivity problem which
is related to BP, but not necessarily pointing toward or away from it.
But you wanting to quit college and wanting to do something else, be something else, and not know what or maybe even why might reflect you being 18 or just not being sure of what they want as much as one being bipolar.
Being scheming doesn't really have much to do with being bipolar. It's not part of the criterianor is it common or uncommon.
I guess I just wanted to give you a couple examples of the opposite view.
But, my suggestion would be to make a list similar to this one [which is very well put together] with symptoms and then examples and bring it into your doctor and see what they say if it bothers you so much.
Do you feel the current treatment is just way off and not targeting your symptoms at all?
If you haven't told the doctor about the "speedy" type symptoms, that is a problem.
I'm not sure why you won't take meds and maybe I misunderstood that part or am confused on that point, but that is treatment for bipolar, so you really should reconsider that since it's possible that you may be diagnosed.
If you are, that will be part of your treatment plan.