its sad that you have to go through this twice -once when it happened and now again - I'm glad you have a good relationship with your T that really helps -

I have no words to help, I dont know how to stop the pain or i would - i guess we just have to go through it to get past it -

there is a light at the end of the tunnell - sometimes they just turn it way down low to save on the electricity bill LOL

Take care P7