Oi! I'm gonna go out on a limb here AG, I hope I don't offend...that's certainly not my intent. Only to help.

I couldn't agree with you more...you are not an angry, bitter, hateful, vengeful person. Your disposition is more passive than that. You turn your anger inward toward yourself and that is the very reason for the depths of your depression into the deep dark abyss. You DO have anger, it's just misdirected and you use it to punish yourself instead of others. Why? you ask. Because you are too much of a ppl pleaser. You need human attention too badly to risk it on something like rage. That's not to say you never get mad. I've SEEN you get mad and lash out. And then you have more reason to jpunish yourself in your depression. There is nothing abstract about your depression AG, it is very specific and very focused and full of intent.

Where I think you make yourself "unsafe" to be approached by someone you've had differences with is your self deprication. Your self-loathing, the way you'll take EVERYTHING so personally and feel overly hurt by the reconciliation. Even here in this post...you took it personally that ppl weren't responding. This makes you unapproachable. Yes, when someone does respond your grateful, appreciative, responsive and sweet. But overly so. You crave the attention so bad it's a little overwhelming. Not everyone will know what to say in a particular post or thread. I've been there. I've also made posts I desperately wanted ppl to respond to and when it didn't happen fast enough I began to question myself. You are FULL of self-doubt. You have a very difficult time holding *yourself* up, your too dependent on others to do that for you. This is a mistake.
Another point AG is that ppl know exactly what you're referring to here, it's kinda hard not to. This makes ppl uncomfortable because everything is being said by nothing being said. Ppl like specifics to a problem or issue, not generalizations. Ppl want the story...not the gory details, but the facts of the situation.
Try not to take everything and anything so personally. Ppl's responses or lack thereof are not necessarily about you.
I responded, why can't that be enough?
Thinking of you AG. I'm your friend.
TgrsPurr. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoooooooooooo