I think it just might be another tool to numb you like other people would use alcohol or drugs or overeating or sleeping all the time. You may just not have good coping skills to deal with life & need to get some help with that. At least I do. I'm getting help in that regard with dialectical behavioral therapy group classes. It is helping me immensely. I had lousy coping skills--to the point of overdosing when I was feeling overwhelmed with hurt. I've got to do better than that! But I do use other behaviors to "numb me out" that are destructive to me so I'm learning better things to do.--Suzy