I'm sorry your hurting. I used to be afraid of the pain but I have learned that sometimes it's the very thing that makes me move forward. I know that it's hard to use it that way sometimes, but I hope that you can make the most out of it, and go out and reclaim your life, in the time frame that is for you. Rest and gather your strength and when you are ready push through to the other side. I wish you all the best.