My am sorry that you are having such a hard time. We all here are glad that you decided to share with us. Many of us feel honored when people share such profoundly personal experiences. I would like to say from what I have read, you aren't truly taking the right precautions to make sure you are getting the rest you need. I know that it's hard to find time and ways to recover in today's busy world and especially when your family has so much history with special needs. I would like to say that I am impressed with your resilience. I know you feel exhausted but that because you have so much on your plate. Don't feel bad because you need to take time to recover. The hard thing for many of us to do is to find a small amount of time to relieve ourselves of stress and then when we do we don't really rest. We feel guilty for being tired, we think about what we are going to do in the morning or what we didn't get done that done or week. When you take time to rest make sure you don't worry over what didn't get done or what needs to get, or who is covering for you while you are resting. The other thing is to reach out, which you have done by sharing here. Don't be afraid to tell your family, who should and most likely will understand that you need some time. So don't be so hard on yourself for feeling like you are so worn down. Take good care of yourself, because from the sounds of things your family really needs you.