It brought tears to my eyes to sign in and read the replies to my posts and the PM's and visitor messages. How can I forget I am blessed by this place.
I did talk to my T's today and I have a sorta safety contract with my reg T. She made me pinky promise that i would be safe....and my promises expecially to her are gold. That was last night. Then today she called me to check up on me and told me my promise was for the rest of my life. I told her a week is what I can give her. I dont want to hurt myself at all. I just get impulses when my brain gets so over whelmed.
Today i am doing better. I am tired and wobbly. The baby next door is doing so much better and she blew me kisses today..I taught her that. I think I need a plan when my brain gets over whelmed and a way to make it so i can talk about it and deal with it. My reg T asked me today what she could do to help me talk to her when I am over whelmed and i dont know.....