I hope you are feeling a bit better. Just allow yourself to feel what you feel without feeling weak. Sometimes the guilt of feeling overwhelmed and weak is the straw that breaks the camels back. I am glad to see that you are also able to help others in need and that is admirable but don't over do it or neglect your needs because it's easy to over extend. It sounds like you have a lot to offer those people in your life, so in order to be able to help them to the best of your ability make sure you take care of yourself too. They need you. You know what they say when you step on a plane. "In the event of cabin depressurization place YOUR oxygen mask on first, then help others." Besides you deserve to have some peace in your life too.