Thanks((HUG)) I am. The funny thing is that with me..taking care of infants and kids and people in need helps. It gives me a place to put all this love and compassion god gave me...he gave me all this and put me in a family where it was unwanted..but I know when I am holding a crying infant who is stressed and her little body is tense, giving her what she needs and aiding her brings me to a place that is healing. Yesterday it was a bad day and yes i need to make sure I dont get that way again. This baby was so distressed yesterday she started humming and rocking herself..it was so sad. I just held her and sang to her and bathed her fed her warm bottles.