That's the problem, Silver. I don't really have plans anymore. Why bother? Nothing in life that I've worked for or planned for has turned out. I feel as if I'm treading water -- and I'm getting tired and I don't know why I'm doing it because there's no shore in sight.

I feel really tired today. Physically, mentally, emotionally tired. It seems to take so long to do little things. I feel overwhelmed and confused fairly easily.

Every time I make a mistake or misstep in class, I feel like it's the end of the world. Like a failure. A screw up.

Sliding down that slippery slope . . . again. . .