Everyone, I want to share my feeling of happiness with you.
You have read my pain. My fears.

Now read this.

Today I discovered something that touched me deep down. I wasn't even truly looking for it but I stumbled upon it. As I was beaten down every day I often thought no progress was being made. But this happened.

And I feel HAPPY. Actually happy. It's something I haven't felt... just pure happiness and contentment in a LONG LONG time. I wasn't thinking I could again. But it's here, glowing inside me

I know I will go back to being sad. I know that this does not mean I am suddenly better. But this feeling has turned to JOY because I know I CAN feel this way again. I'm so free, so clean, so happy.

I want to spread this feeling to everyone here. It can happen. It may take WAAAYY WAYYY too much time to happen... but it can.