Venting can really help sometimes.
This is positive stuff...Setting goals, making plans, and takings steps to stay away from the edge of the black pit.
It seems unfair that when you need financial security to help you through tough emotional times your financial situations often gets worse. Jobs disappear, spouses leave, savings dry up, and medical and therapy bills pile up. A more compassionate society would give people more cushion from this kind of stress. Oh well.
If you need creative ideas for finding work that is meaningful, check out the oldie-but-goodie "What Color Is Your Parachute?: A Practical Manual for Job-Hunters and Career-Changers" (Ten Speed Press). The author, Nelson Bolles, is a kindly, wise older guy with a background in physics, engineering and theology. He's been updating this book yearly for over thirty years and it is still fresh and informative. It's sort of a "discover yourself while you find a job" career change book.
He's an ordained Episcopalian priest so he might have some tips on finding a convent to join
All the best,
Saafir
Read a neat interview of Bolles at
http://www.fastcompany.com/online/27/bolles.html