I feel like my life is similar to yours and I also feel like I don't have nor ever will have friends. I'm living away from my husband and my parents in order to finish my education in the US. I always feel like people usually do not want to hear about my personal thoughts or feelings. I feel sad for both of us but also happy that there is someone like me as well!
I may not be in the best of my spirits but I am confident that we all deserve to be loved. We just need to work on our self-esteem! Hope this makes you feel better!