Thank you for all your replies, they mean so much to me.. Really they do.
No, there's no-one I can call because I don't have a mobile phone because the police have it and my home phone is linked so I can't make outgoing calls, i can only receive them.

I'm trying so hard to phone this helpline, but I'm absolutely terrified. I went out with a friend last night at around 9pm, to get some shopping. Even though I felt "ok" enough with him, I still felt really unsafe.. I constantly looked over my shoulder, I almost got run over because I was so concentrated on getting home as quickly as I could, that I didn't even look when I crossed the road..

I'm such a danger to myself.. i bring all this on myself and every day and night is consumed by everything that's happened to me.. Things people say, things they do, people I see, places I go, my dreams.. I can't sleep without the people coming after me in my dreams and it's awful..

I couldn't do anything about my "Adoptive Brother" could I? It's years too late.. It was 7 years ago, nearly 8. Surely nothing can be done?