It's my cbt worker, he's constantly pressing on at me to tell him how I feel and I never know what to say.. I just say "I feel tired" that's it.

Connor's not being very helpful either.. I'll explain in detail tomorrow, I need to go over to his, I'm getting picked up soon.. Not looking forward to it too mcuh tbh. I just hope it all goes well.. We'll be drinking tonight, so I just hope he doesn't drink too much and get out of hand.. Like he does sometimes..

I have barely any confidence as it is.. It's so crap, I can never speak out, I'm a singer yet when i go on stage I shake like a leaf. My confidence has grown as a singer because I'm less "static" on stage, but in other ways.. Not so much.. I always feel like a black sheep wherever I go.. It sucks..