Hi TPND,
It definitely sounds like you're stressed. That could be the most obvious comment in history. I used to be like that at age 15 when everything sh*tty came together at once and I was cutting for the next 3 years on and off, with the OD attempts etc.

I don't know anything about your situation since I haven't posted much and you likely have posted on your problem before. I would call a hotline because even if you cry nobody else will know as it is confidential. That's the great thing about those services. I wish I knew about those then but I didn't.

I can say that whether it is a day, week, year or decade, things will get better.

Hang in there,
bb