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Hugs if you want them.

I was reading your post and I realized how similar your story is to mine. I use to be able to handle the world. No problem. Now after the depression and anxiety, I question weather I will ever be able to handle the things I was able to handle before. I took medical leave from work for 2 months because my depression reduced me to a pile of mush.
After returning to work, my hubby and T would often tell me that going to work is a big accomplishment and that I should be proud. In my head I'm thinking to myself, "Are they for real?". I mean any "normal" person can go to work.
It took sometime before I realized that I am not the person I used to be anymore. I am different in many ways and I have to treat myself different because of the depression and anxiety. I am still working on this. Everyday for me taking small steps towards recovery is bitter sweet. I still think to myself that I am capable of more but then I realize how far I have come since my "breakdown" and I feel proud of the strides I have made thus far and you should be too.
All the trauma, heartache, depression we have been through in life didnt happen in one day so you cant expect the recovery process to move that fast either. I know that recovery is a slow process that I get frustrated with but I know moving to fast could set me back and I dont want that. I have to re-think life and move slowly in the direction I need to go by setting goals and taking baby steps. This takes time but I know that with every step I get closer to being that strong independant women that I once was.

Even if you fall down while moving on your journey forward, you get up and dust yourself off and try again. You can do this, I know you can. Your an intelligent, strong, determined and beautiful women who is capable of more then you give yourself credit for.
You idea of making goals and setting a schedule is good. Start there. Then move one foot in front of the other. Before you know it........your off and away.

Good luck to you sweety and my thoughts, love and prayers are will you always.