I'm also in recovery&have found it's a lifelong journey. I also have a spotty work history&I am now on disability. I spent 3 years&$5000 to get it. They delay as much as possible to make sure that you really are disabled. At least they're finally seeing mental illness as a disability.
Keep taking your meds&going to therapy-you may need to for your lifetime-no crime in that. You need to make a routine for yourself-chores done on certain days, church, time spent with friends or here at PC. Don't give up! Bring it up with your t that you're struggling&if they're worth their salt they can help you come up with ways to cope.
In the meantime, post here or PM me-I always answer&check my inbox every day-Stay strong-you CAN get through this. Another thing-you may have expectations for yourself that are just too much for yourself right now-cut them down&into baby steps. Unfortunately that's just part of being bipolar-it's not your fault or a character flaw. I'm the same way-I congratulate myself on making through another day.