Hi Kureha. It sounds like this fear is very real to you, and no matter what the evidence is, it doesn't matter-- because it is a real fear to you. I bet it can be obnoxious when people tell you it's OCD, but you are thinking that you have a certain insight into what is going on .

Do you think your anxieties will be calmed when your psychologist tells you she is okay?

I have a very good friend who has been HIV+ for 20+ years. I greet him with a hug and a kiss. We have shared a drink from the same glass; I have eaten from his fork. However, what I say probably doesn't make a difference because I understand what it is like when you have fears of your own that are real to you. Just because others don't necessarily share the same fear, or have the same beliefs doesn't mean you aren't going through it.

I hope that some of this can be eased when you get to talk to your psychologist.