thank you for all your messages, I really needed to get it out, I don't know, I've had a hard time, I didn't have any doubts until now, my life is very simple, everyday I come from school, watch TV, hear music, spend the time in internet and my family, I like soccer and play it in my yard or see it at TV and I do not go to parties and stuff like other people my age usually do, going get drunk, smoking and things like that, I don't know if its just me is just that I don't fell comfortable in that kind of situations, some have told me that I will regret it in the future that I didn't go to parties but I don't know, I always imagine myself when I'm older and maybe when i'm older it will be the time to have fun in parties when I'm more mature, maybe it's not my time for that, I feel good when I'm home watching my favorite movies in a saturday night, I only have my friends at school, outside school I don't have any friends, sometimes I don't feel bad about it, and sometimes I do feel bad, I get into a inner conflict and don't know where my life is going. I really thank your opinions and support and I hope this inner conflict ends soon.