Moonkin....slow down and take a deep breath. Please just take in a breath from your tummy and let it out slowly. I want you to listen to me ok? T's have bad days T's are not perfect....what it sounds like she was trying to tell you probably didnt come out in a very supportive way. I want you to slow down and dont do anything stupid. You are thinking with your emotions and that is way to impulsive.
Your T has always sounded like she cares for you alot. She probably was trying to point out the ways she does show you she cares about you and it came out wrong. I want you to slow down and focus on the good things she has done for you and hold on to that. No one can be perfect all the time.
One step at a time. Please be safe ok? Please. You are loved on this forum and we are here. SLow down relax and breathe. Ok then lets talk about step 2 maybe calling and talking to her. One thing at a time. You need to be safe.