TPND,

with the helpline, i know its hard but hey if you make a fool of yourself you can always hang up ! - you can hang up a thousand times if thats what it takes for your to be able to talk - its ok - its scary - but it gets easier - when I first rang my psychologist i hung up on him 3 times - before I could even get hello out ! sometimes it helps just to listen - and thats what i did once i got hello out - and my first name - he just talked to me until i was able to talk -

this is going to sound really dumb but it does sometimes work -- if you have any funny dvds (even tohouhg you are not in the mood) put them on - they can help.

Try to breath slow and deep - when you/we are stressed you breath short breaths and this makes your body think you must get ready to run so out goes the adrenalin to make you even more jumpy.

Look at pictures of your loved one's - remember they care about you and love you

send another email to R.E.A.C.H. - somtimes just getting the words out there helps - post here at PC that helps too - be kind to yourself - eat chocolate! or your favourite food even if you dont feel like it - try to taste every bite - take a long shower or bath with lots of bubbles!

Remember we ar here for you too - you are not alone -